Ran over a 5k tonight with no stops and felt like I could have gone another mile at least which makes me feel great about the upcoming runs I have in preparation for a 10k. I've decided my ultimate goal is a half marathon so we'll see how that goes. I've felt great at work and outside of it as well...Things are going much, much better.
It's funny how some simple life changes and a little bit of willpower can do that.
Goodnight all...
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
Things that feel amazing...
“To give anything less than your best is to sacrifice the gift”
Going on my 3rd week of no drinks from during the work week (Sunday - Thursday) along with running four days per week and going to bed by ten. I feel pretty damn good. Work has been going great and overall I've seen a huge uptick in my energy which has allowed me to kick ass in most areas of my life.It was nice to step back tonight and just see how the changes I have made in those areas have really had a positive affect on my overall well being; crazy how that works, huh? :) I have a 5k coming up in a few weeks and plan to sign up for a few more along with a 10k. Ultimate goal is to run a half-marathon in the next year which would be a pretty far step from where I started but it's something I know I can do.
Well, I am off to bed, hope everyone has a great evening and rest of the week!
Justin
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
Eh, who knows?
"You played a hand and you lost. You lost a big fuckin' hand and some people lose a big hand like that and have the sack to ante up again."
Quote from my favorite movie which has represented my state of mind of late where the two main characters talk about having the courage to risk and lose what they put out there with regards to relationships and still have the courage to do it again.
I truly cared for a girl I was recently with and let it slip away multiple times due to my own fear of getting hurt/commitment and just plain stupidity. It was a pretty bad feeling being faced with the reality but it was one I deserved and brought on myself. I really feel in my heart that we would have a great future together had the timing been better right now but that's what life is sometimes and you just take the good with the bad and learn from your mistakes. I told her how I felt and I will be happy knowing I didn't leave anything on the table.
The great thing with this experience has been the fact that I know I can have these feelings for someone after everything I went through last year which gives me a lot to look forward to in the future.
Anyways, enough with the rambling it just felt good to get my feelings out.
"Laissez les bons temps rouler!"
Quote from my favorite movie which has represented my state of mind of late where the two main characters talk about having the courage to risk and lose what they put out there with regards to relationships and still have the courage to do it again.
I truly cared for a girl I was recently with and let it slip away multiple times due to my own fear of getting hurt/commitment and just plain stupidity. It was a pretty bad feeling being faced with the reality but it was one I deserved and brought on myself. I really feel in my heart that we would have a great future together had the timing been better right now but that's what life is sometimes and you just take the good with the bad and learn from your mistakes. I told her how I felt and I will be happy knowing I didn't leave anything on the table.
The great thing with this experience has been the fact that I know I can have these feelings for someone after everything I went through last year which gives me a lot to look forward to in the future.
Anyways, enough with the rambling it just felt good to get my feelings out.
"Laissez les bons temps rouler!"
Monday, April 11, 2011
Going to try something new...
Here is the newest and most radical thought I have ever come up with on this blog. I am going to start trusting people in relationships. I don't know why this light came on all of a sudden but it's something I have to do. Call it growing up, call it afraid of being alone, but I know I can't keep pushing away people because I am scared of what I might say or who they might see.
"Trust is a funny thing,
never know what it can bring,
but it sure can cause you pain.
I’ve been hurt a time or two,
baby I know so have you
so lets put the past away.
And give this everything we’ve got..."
Just hope it's not too late for me!
"Trust is a funny thing,
never know what it can bring,
but it sure can cause you pain.
I’ve been hurt a time or two,
baby I know so have you
so lets put the past away.
And give this everything we’ve got..."
Just hope it's not too late for me!
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Hi
Just a new post to say hello to all my friends out there. I'm working on planning a trip to Costa Rica this summer for the hell of it. Why not?
Hope all is well! I am working on the mother of all update blog posts from the past three months as it is very therapeutic to sit back, relax and just put some thoughts down on paper so stay tuned.
Love!
Justin
Hope all is well! I am working on the mother of all update blog posts from the past three months as it is very therapeutic to sit back, relax and just put some thoughts down on paper so stay tuned.
Love!
Justin
Friday, December 10, 2010
Am happy...
Hello to anyone who is still out there...I am writing this really for myself more than anything at this point.
I officially closed on the re-finance of my house a few minutes ago as the sole owner!!!!! Words really can't describe how I feel right now. I am so amazingly happy with how things in my life have turned out. Looking back, I feel so truly blessed to have gone through the tough times that I did because so much good has come out of it.
On March 19th, I wrote the following:
"Right now, I seem to be in limbo, stuck desperately wanting to move forward, but very much mired in the little things that I still have to somehow clean up from what went wrong. It's crazy how swinging by a place that was your home a week ago to get a coat can trigger such a wave of emotion and seemingly throw you right back into a place you refuse to let yourself go. No one said this would be easy I suppose.
In moments like these you want to make your situation the cataclysmic event of world history because it feels so consuming...One thing that has helped me is to take a step back, look at the lives of my friends and families. I can always point out moments in their lives where their situation must of felt as sad and overwhelming as mine. From there I look at how amazing their lives have turned out in the present tense and feel a great deal of motivation and a sense of duty to keep my head up and push through this until I get to the good point I know is waiting for me."
I'm at that good point and so amazingly lucky....
"It's been a brilliant journey of self-awakening."
Thanks to everyone out there for the thoughts, kind words of encouragement and friendship; I love you all.
Justin
I officially closed on the re-finance of my house a few minutes ago as the sole owner!!!!! Words really can't describe how I feel right now. I am so amazingly happy with how things in my life have turned out. Looking back, I feel so truly blessed to have gone through the tough times that I did because so much good has come out of it.
On March 19th, I wrote the following:
"Right now, I seem to be in limbo, stuck desperately wanting to move forward, but very much mired in the little things that I still have to somehow clean up from what went wrong. It's crazy how swinging by a place that was your home a week ago to get a coat can trigger such a wave of emotion and seemingly throw you right back into a place you refuse to let yourself go. No one said this would be easy I suppose.
In moments like these you want to make your situation the cataclysmic event of world history because it feels so consuming...One thing that has helped me is to take a step back, look at the lives of my friends and families. I can always point out moments in their lives where their situation must of felt as sad and overwhelming as mine. From there I look at how amazing their lives have turned out in the present tense and feel a great deal of motivation and a sense of duty to keep my head up and push through this until I get to the good point I know is waiting for me."
I'm at that good point and so amazingly lucky....
"It's been a brilliant journey of self-awakening."
Thanks to everyone out there for the thoughts, kind words of encouragement and friendship; I love you all.
Justin
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
A poem I just read and really liked, ideals we can all strive to live by I would think...
"If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:
If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with wornout tools:
If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: 'Hold on!'
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings - nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run -
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man my son!" -- Kipling
"If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:
If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with wornout tools:
If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: 'Hold on!'
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings - nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run -
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man my son!" -- Kipling
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